Longing

Longing for you to hold me,
wishing that you'd call.
Jumping toward the hallucination
that you'll be there to break my fall.
Watching as you're standing there
across spaces far too great.
Dreaming of making things better
but knowing I'm too late.

They Would Be Lyrics...

... If I Could Finish The Song.

And I'm losing myself in my own reflection
Shedding the mask that would be my protection
Like a cruel joke, I fell for you
and you delivered the punchline right on cue.
There is no one for me.

Unknown

Under my skin,
a fever I keep.
There is something inside
that longs to be free.
Like a live wire,
buried under inches of snow
No one dares to touch
No one wants to know.
My emotions are roiling
like clouds before a storm
There is a war brewing
'twixt head and heart I've been torn.

Completion

*Don't even bother to comment and tell me how retarded this one is. I just figured I would post it. Don't know why.*

What happened to my innocent hands?
My smiling face?
My heart that was complete all by itself?
What has changed?
These agonized screams echo through
an empty core.
I'm alone.
So alone.
No one but me.
I've ruined myself.
What have I done?
I don't even know what I'm feeling anymore
If I was me
I wouldn't need him.
or him.
or him.
I'd be fine with myself
but my hands don't know how to be innocent
the process is long and hard
and no one wants to help
so I pull myself together
after falling to pieces at his feet
and all in vain
I've given up.

Defiance

*~yet another mysterious binder poem...~*

No matter how many times you've lied to my face,
No matter how gullible I may have been,
to believe that you had any respect for me
I thought what we were doing was right
But finally I see
how it feels to lose a dream
This vision I had of us, ten years down the line,
It will never be.
You may think of me as the girl that you once fucked
But I'll always know you as the boy that I once loved
But I'm okay with that
Because the spaces between my fingers
have since been filled by another's
Someday I'll forget you,
all the pain you caused,
how you ruined my self respect.
I'm healing.
Does that scare you?